gainsaying

The thing I have the problem with is consistency. Or rather lack of it. It's difficult to be in a certain position where you have to explain the inconsistency of others. When someone say this is is the way its going to be and then someone else just over-rides that entire statement for their own gain and you sit there and watch it happen. And someone misses out, someone feel overlooked, and all the work and belief you put in to making everyone feel like they are valued is pretty much a bunch of crap. A veneer. A cheap appearance of value where there really is no worth.

It's like being in a room and the belief is 'rules are important" and someone walks in and says, " The first person to raise their hand gets the pot of gold. That's the rule." And they leave and another person walks in and says "Who wants the pot of gold?" and you raise your hand fast and furious and they pick the person next to you just because they like them more.

It makes me burn with anger and seethe at the injustice and I can't do a damn thing about it.

By the way, day 7 of the Detox is calm and fine and nothing to report. I did notice yesterday that after I ate that scone, I felt really tired and sluggish within 1/2 hr. I'll do another food test after the 12 dyas is up to see if I feel that way again after eating a flour and sugar concotion.